I By Khari D. Hawke I refuse to surrender to the hissing catcalls of conformity,  A despair of epic infinity.  An existence of lonely promiscuity embattled within a war between incomprehensible discrepancy.  Discretion is a no-go as I will never give into this solo affliction so low that it slumbers beneath this hell we know as earth.  Testimonials painted ruby red sorrow and regret,  A bitterness so sweet with jaw tingling screams of should've could've would've's,  It could raise the dead.  My heart could never survive the insurgence of sorrow,  An onslaught of imposters who seek me as their prize.  A victory only won through bloodshed tears and an ignorance of fear.  A cut so deep that it sears through my past present and questionable tomorrow......  I don't want to be like you.

Introduction To Beauty

INTRODUCTION TO BEAUTY

By Khari D. Hawke

Skin the color of pure gold  the first thing he greets me with  an introduction he isn't even aware of  I'm lost  That jet black hair hugging his head  framing his eyes  highlighting his lips  aging his chin  My age?  Focus  Where am I heading?  Those tea-colored eyes dart toward me  ...  and back to his laptop  Damn,Where did I just come from?  I should move as to not seem so awestruck  I order a frozen coffee drink  "Ok, just stare at the counter", but  "Thank you God for your goodness, for giving me another day of life, and for...his smile."  His smile  The reason for my impromptu prayer  His smile  easy  weakening  pure  I admire his smile as he studies his laptop  Who is making my stranger smile?  Jealousy  "Your coffee sir?"  How long was this guy watching my admiration?  Embarrassment  ...  So?!  Sit or leave?  Plan or run?  Tea-colored eyes again...darting  Maybe  I'll take a seat

WOW

WOW

By Khari D. Hawke

My reaction.... 

Wow 
Getting my thoughts together in these past couple of days 
Has most definitely been the hardest thing to do 
I went from talking s***t, to paying attention, 
To giving too much attention, to I love you 
Wow 
I question now with the feelings inside myself 
The knot in my chest 
The warm saliva in my mouth 
I question if it was far too much too soon 
I've expected way much more then what's willing to be chewed 
Which leaves me with a cold plate 
Making it easy for the words to roll off my lips 
"P***y nigga do you" 
Knowing that's not what I want when I wept for you 
Climbing over my own self made walls with heavy weights of insecurities 
Just to give myself to you 
Feeling like the fool now asking myself what did you do 
After over a year of side lines, I'm thinking 
Now it'll be just a shame to walk away and say this is the best thing to do 
wow 
S***t, if I pointed out your words I'm clear on how you feel bout me and things 
I'd think we were already through 
And being that you meant what you said, makes it more vivid then the sky being blue 
What f***ks me up is that I've already confessed my heart to you 
Wow 
I decided not to move even if it means denying my heart of its just due 
f***k, if my eyes were free from water then I could see what the f***k I'm typing but I'm like f***k that too 
We were so much more happier when I aint claim you 
But now I cant just treat you like some ole regular snack piece because I love you 
So when you say I've become mushy and emotional 
I'd rather you call it what you must see it as 
Soft 
I mean I'm no longer da dude putting you off 
Sadden that puttin you on top 
means I'm da maybe maybe not 
now im riding you hard and you're suppose to be the fan of cock 
while losing your attention, growing tension 
I see my demeanor of change in my every day life 
I can't say s***t because I agree and believe it to be true 
I let you get under my skin 
bleeding my heart to become your tool 
you would think by acknowledging this shyt I wouldn't be da fool.... 
but I'll just sit back and see what time do 
I know I'll never stop loving you strong and true 
No matter what happens I still wish the best for you 
Wow