HURTS TO KEEP YOU, BUT FEELS LIKE DEATH LETTING YOU GO.

Hurts To Keep You, But It Feels Like Death Letting You Go by Khari D. Hawke MY 2ND LOVE YOUR HURT WAS DIFFERENT THAN MY FIRST.  YOU HURT ME IN A DIFFERENT MANNER.  YOU LED ME TO BELIEVE THAT THERE WAS LOVE BETWEEN US. THAT WE WERE GOING TO BE DIFFERENT.  IN THE END WE WERE THE SAME. YOU WEREN'T STRONG ENOUGH TO WANT MORE.  YOU WEREN'T READY FOR MORE YOU JUST WANTED WHAT WAS IN FRONT OF YOU.  I BEGAN TO LOVE SOMEONE WHO DIDN'T REALLY LOVE ME, CARE FOR ME, CONSIDER ME.  TO KEEP YOU, TO WANT YOU WAS HELL ON EARTH. FIGHTING FOR OUR LOVE WAS A STRUGGLE EVERYDAY.  A STRUGGLE AT THE END I FOUND OUT THAT I WAS DOING ALL THE FIGHTING.  TO WANT YOU IN MY LIFE WAS HELL BUT LETTING YOU GO CUT ME INTO MY SOUL.  BECAUSE I DID AND DO LOVE YOU. SETTING YOU FREE WAS FOR YOU SO YOU COULD BE HAPPY.  BECAUSE I COULDN'T MAKE YOU HAPPY. I FEEL LIKE IM DYING SLOWLY.  LOVE IS UGLY AND IT IS HARD. THE GOOD PART IS SO HARD TO KEEP.  I'LL ALWAYS WISH YOU WELL AND WANT BETTER FOR YOU.  ONCE AGAIN I FIND MYSELF AT THE END OF A BLADE ALLOWING MYSELF ONCE AGIAN TO FALL VICTIM OF ANOTHER DUDES DAGGER.  WHETHER I KEPT YOU OR LET YOU GO IN THE END ALLS I FEEL IS PAIN.