Wednesday, January 21, 2009

They Call Me...

They Call ME
BY Khari D. Hawke


They call me 
Gay, faggot, butt… lover, aids deliverer 
Attacked from all angles even religions at war come together to hate me 
This Unified hate even crosses boundaries of race, boundaries of nations 
We come together break all barriers to all share this one feeling of combined hate 
I could..Stab my mother, kill my brother, burn down a village, shoot up a school, nuke a country, rape a 
woman and they’d still love me..more 

They call me 
Abomination, disgrace to my nation, hells spawn, disease spreader 
My brothers pretend like..everything is ok..maintaining their allusion of happiness 
Fake complacency that’s all they can do when we are spoon fed rights… 
I want all my rights..fuck what you say! 
Yet..I do nothing..say nothing..afraid to even stand up for my sexuality 
Passive to those who choose to dominate and control what I can an can not do..yeah that’s ok 
Misrepresented and underrepresented in a world where the straight man leads 
And the crooked man…follows… 

They call me 
Carpet muncher, Lesbo, Man wanting to be 
You think I am pretending to be him when all I want to be is me 
Used to fuel your sexual longings and fantasies 
When reality is we are more then your sexual tools 
I love her just as much as you could 

They call me 
Home wrecker, man stealer, woman killer 
Struggles go unacknowledged..unreported no one cares what…. we feel 
We are raped over an over again by the assault of the people who say they care 
Conditioned to be nothing but whores, when diseases spread we are to fault 
Discreet underground dark passionate love making 
Keep it to yourself no one cares till they catch it 
So we lust..and lust trying to fulfill what needs we can 
Unheard complaints of sexual discrimination 
My home was wrecked too, when he left me for you 

They call me 
Lesbian, dike, bull dagger, butch 
It looks easy to you but for me I stuggle too 
Ideal family structures hard to maintain 
Fears of long term commitments because the odds are against us 
No laws to protect us, just there to degrade us 

They call me 
Diabolic life form, evil incarnate, Devil 
Damned for a desire that I reject myself 
Even though its not my fault, it is my fault for choosing to lay with..that man 
Kill a brother of your own blood with poisonous contaminated semen 
Results of short life expectancy 
Evil life forms created from diabolic incantations 

They call me 
Transexual, unmanly, drag queen, female wanting to be 
Even though I was this way before I knew the difference between what is boy--what is…girl? 
Mothers hate and disown their own creations 
Regretting that they didn’t take that..pill 
They would kill their own child just to take away the resentment they..feel 
Disappoint those who’re supposed to care 
Trying to be normal..live normal with this woman clawing inside of me..trying to get out of me 
But I gotta be the man I was born to be or else my kids..will hate me 

They call me 
Homosexual, DL, Gay, Bitch Ass Nigga 
Because I walk with a switch or my voice has a higher pitch 
So I put a front and..sag my jeans, walk wit a lean, put my grill on mean 
Look how you want me to look so you won’t see how I feel 
Get me a girl so I can keep my secret 
Be who you want me to be 
But I’m sure you still will find something to call me

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